Alas, My Life is in Shambles.

Essentially, I have fallen off the self improvement wagon.

Mike Stone completely dropped me for a woman he met three weeks before.
Financial aid fell through for school.
I've almost completely given up on working out outside of derby.
I've been eating nothing but junk. Junk for breakfast, junk for lunch, and drunk for dinner.
I'm pretty much 100% sure that I won't be going to Everett for barbering school.
Not now, not ever.
Now, I am left to decide what to do. Where to go from here.

I've got a bit of a good thing going with a new guy, it's been about a month and I'm pretty happy with the way things are coming along.
I've got offers and opprotunity to go live in Halifax again, which are EXTREMELY tempting.
In the past week we've acquired about 20 new skaters and approximately 15 officials for the Derby Dames.

I've got reason to stay, but desire to go, you know?

Wahhh.

Almost Had a Panic Attack.

This morning I picked up my balls and called the bank that I owe money to, and the cell phone company I flaked on over a year ago. I just completely stopped paying either of them when I moved home a year ago. It keeps me up at night, knowing that I'm acruing debt every month.

So, The bank didn't answer, so I left a message and I'm waiting to hear back. While I was on hold for the phone company I was actually shaking, and felt completely nauseous. The phone man ended up being completely nice to me, which calmed me down quite a bit. We'll see how I can tackle this debt, it's got to be done.

Roller Derby Workout Challenge Week 3

1) What about those push ups?
- I'm getting better! I can do 10 pretty easily now :)

2) Time yourself doing a plank for as long as you possibly can and post your time.
- 1:45... It could be better.

3) What surface do you skate on? What Wheels do you use?
- We skate on a 50+ year old wooden floor, and it's beautiful to skate on. Right now I'm on Caymans (TERRIBLE) But I've got some Zooms on the way (I'm broke and they're decently cheap) and I'm pretty excited to try em out.

4) Star Jump or Burpee?
- Burpee! I'm starting to like them. I must be going crazy.

5)Name two members of your ref staff.
- Road Rage and Digger.

Falling Short.

So, I've got the word for financial aid from my school.

I'm eligible for loans to cover approximately 50% of my tuition. That leaves me to cover the remaining 50% and cost of living.I'm having absolutely no luck with privatized alternative student loans, so it seems I'm going to have to work a full time job, a part time job, and go to school full time if I want this to work. Are there even enough hours in the day? I'm feeling very discouraged.

On the upside, today I told my boss at work about my plans to move and she was surprisingly supportive. She told me that transfers are totally do-able, so when I got home I made a call to the Michaels down the street from my school and I've got a bit of a phone interview tomorrow with the assistant manager. Having even a part-time gig to show up to would be hugely comforting. I'm excited, I hope it goes well!

RDWC Challenge Week 2!

1- What is your least favorite part of RDWC so far?

My biggest struggle is preparing meals in the morning. I've got a million things to do before I can get out the door for work, and I usually eat my breakfast on the go. Honestly, I don't at all mind taking the time to do it, it's just been a real struggle to adjust my routine to accommodate another task. Definitely a struggle that will pay off, though, so I'm not complaining!

2) Do you remember the first time you went roller skating? Do tell!

On the sidewalk outside my grandma's house, about age 4. I had these beauties!

3) Name a song that was on your dance mix for the 30 minutes of dance cardio.

"Ra Ra Rasputin" by ABBA (Don't Judge me! I challenge you to attempt listening to that song and NOT dance!)

4) What do you think is the biggest misconception of roller derby

When I tell people I play, they look at me like I'm crazy. I've had tons of people tell me they thought derby was only something hat happened in movies and was only palyed by Über PUNX who spend their free time boozing and beating each other to a bloody pulp. If they knew how much time I spend crocheting and reading Dragonlance, they'd never believe I played!

5) We want the first three words that come to your mind when we say SUGAR, Anything Goes!

Poison, tempting, scrumptious.

6)If you could pick between being able to fly or being able to turn yourself invisible, which would you pick?

Definitely flight! Being able to go wherever I want AT NO COST... that would make my life awesome. I've got friends all over the world, many of whom I haven't seen in years, so being able to pick up and go see them at the drop of a hat would be the best I could ask for. I could wander up to Halifax' Gus' Pub on a Friday night and spend Saturday with Dyango in LA, and be back here in Illinois for derby practice Sunday night. I honestly couldn't ask for more.

Naboo The Shaman Costume

So I'm going to a Mighty Boosh/ Old Gregg Themed party next week. I've decided to dress as Naboo. If you're not familiar with the show, stop right now and go watch it.

Thus far, I haven't bought anything for the costume. I've got the Shaman hat, and an awesome vest, and a few shirts that will work. I need pants and a robe to complete the outfit... and maybe some gold pointy flats if I'm lucky. Hopefully it comes together nicely.

Wish me luck!

Had a bit of a slip up on my blogging here, shame one me!

Nothing extremely exciting has happened in the past few days. Work, Derby, Sleep, repeat.

I did somehow wind up on a sort of date last night, which wasn't expected. It was actually pretty fun. I don't know how I feel about dating anyone, because I still have strong feelings for Mike, but I've missed going on dates. We went to WCR's season opener, watched two bouts, and got food with Megandy at the Pick Me Up afterward. It was nice.

On a related note, WCR's opener was GREAT. Manic Attackers kicked Hells Belles asses, and the Fury thoroughly stomped the Double Crossers. I should certainly also mention that the Double Crossers made a valiant comeback at the end of the second, which was impressive, to say the least.

Unfortunately, I failed at avoiding beers at the bout last night. I had 3. This is a super fail on my RDWC diet, so I'm pulling double workouts tonight.

Still haven't heard back from my financial aid advisor about student loans, but I'll be hounding him this upcoming week so we can get shit done. I've made a few contacts in Everett who can hopefully help me out with getting a spot to live, otherwise I'll have to man up and pay for my own apartment. Ugh, let's hope someone decent has a room to spare!